Feb 22,2017
Life is so funny. I started this blog the day after my oldest passed his behind the wheel test.
I was in shock. I was stressed, had total anxiety... you know the whole nine yards..thinking my gawd... he's legal to drive alone??
When I write these blogs, it is typically a one shot deal. Put my thoughts down, press send and done. There isn't a big process here. It's me, my mind and probably many run on sentences...
The first attempt was started and for some reason(to which in truth,I don't remember why) didnt get posted.
So here, I will try again, this time making sure I push post...
Behind the wheel test Jan 30th...
I was trying to stay cool.
I was hoping he would pass, then I was selfish and started hoping that he needed another month of me riding shotgun... I don't know we (specifically mom's) in general are ever 100% ready for their 1st born to drive without some underlying nervousness. It seems to me that the men I have spoken to about driving have far greater ease with teaching a young driver....
I sat patiently... He was in the car a long time after his test finished with the woman grading him.... I thought... oh shit... then this happened. I captured the moment on video....
You see, it started April 8th with passing the permit test.... I thought to myself, thank God he has to have his first 2 hours behind the wheel with a qualified driving instructor... I'm not going to lie, I had a hard time being shotgun... it was more about safety, teachable moments without losing my shit, which apparently I did quite a bit... I even bought "please be kind, student driver' magnets for the car....Which I have to say, helped tremendously with other drivers giving us space :)
But in my defense, when I feel like we are going to crash I feel as though it is acceptable to yell...Its not like we live in small easy town without much traffic. We live in a suburb of northern LA county... traffic, people riding your bumper, blowing through stoplights....
This was the first time he drove my big car home from swim practice...far different than the golf cart and the prius he had practiced in.....
Sweet Jesus... Not a born natural behind the wheel quite yet... but he passed...
So, it was time...
I was having some major anxiety... not gonna lie... I am the first to acknowledge that I am not the first to feel these feelings and I wont be the last. The path had been paved far before me. It's quite a milestone.. stepping into increased responsibility and adulthood....
Maybe the reason for the initial blog not posting was because I needed time... space to process my thoughts..... giving him time to him demonstrate responsibility....There has been a bump or two in the last month, I would be lying if I said otherwise....I am happy to report, no accidents or tickets have occurred.
These blog postings are about my life. If you are looking for blogs about my health coaching practice, um... you will not find it here... This is straight up my life, my thoughts and my journey...Ironically, I'm posting this on my dad's 98th birthday if he was alive... He's was my driving teacher... <3
Wishing you the best,
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