I started mine several years ago upon my friend Cindy's urging. Some things might seem a bit silly and shallow to some but that is why it is a very personal list. Over the years, I have been able to cross several off , while adding new ones along the way.
Why am I writing about this you might ask. Well, a biggie on my list is completing a triathlon. You see after completing two marathons, I am over that one, was able to check that one off my list forever. Training for a tri has been in my mind and on my list for 5 years. Well, the one I signed up for specifically, the Super Seal in Coronado, Ca. My old stomping grounds.
Living with MN weather is challenging. Especially when it starts to get cold. The Super Seal tri is in March. The effort it was going to take to figure out how to get training in(not simple in anyway to bike, run and swim when it is below zero butt ass cold) was mind numbing. I recognized it was simply not in the cards for me at the time. Well, at least that was my excuse. I know that when there is a will there is a way . Clearly the will was not strong enough at the time to figure out how to make it work.
Now, I believe that I was not supposed to have participated until now. It wasn't the right time for me. Last year, once the boys and I had made the big move I thought ok, NOW I am going to sign up! Well, you see the big guy upstairs apparently didn't think so.
Here is a quick story of what happened:
I was vacuuming and get this,I was not paying attention and kicked(stepped forcefully toward) the fireplace.NO JOKE! Have you ever experienced something happening and you know INSTANTLY it bad? I knew something was seriously wrong as soon as contact was made. I immediately iced/elevated and took a handful of anti-inflammatory's and tried not to cry in front of the boys. After all, who hurts themselves vacuuming?
I walked around for about a week and Steve finally made a comment that I will never forget.."How long did you walk around with a broken back before you went to the doctor?" my reply.."6 weeks" his reply," are you going to wait that long this time?"
I made an appointment for next day. x-ray, was negative. See I thought... Well, 2 weeks later and it wasn't any better. To make a long story short, I did break my second toe with confirmation from MRI, and I was in a CAM walking boot for over 8 weeks .My bucket list idea of training for the Super Seal was sunk for the year.On the funny side, I was really the best 'yo mamma"joke... breaking a toe vacuuming....
Fast forward :
Dec 2014, registration is complete, Steve and I have committed to March 15,2015. My brother Nick is joining us to race in his preparation for Vineman 2015.
So here I am today. December 17,2014. I have done my research for training programs, running shoes have been delivered, jog bras have been found. I am starting this journey. At the moment, we are in the throws of major remodeling on the new house and I spend quite a bit of time in the car.My schedule is busy but I will make the time. When there is a will, there is a way.
When I talk with friends who have done triathlons there seems be a common theme. One of the three sports is challenging. A dear friend who is a true athlete in every sense of the word struggles with swimming. How strange I thought, but I came to realize that for me, running is my hurdle.
Since breaking my back and experiencing a herniated disc I have not run. It has been 3 years. I have been active, biked for miles, TRX'd , kept up with my yoga.... but no running. I fully admit that I have had a mental block with the idea. I have been scared of re-injury and the pain that I experienced.
What I have realized through my last marathon debacle(2009) is to listen to my body. The body does not lie. If I remain clear and centered and not allow my ego to get involved, I will be just fine. So in the last two weeks, I have slowly been breaking in my new Adidas and can I tell you something? I have been humbled with interval's but I feel FANTASTIC, post workout.
Logically I know that with any new exercise program, the first two weeks are the toughest. The body goes into a bit of shock. At the moment I feel like my legs has run a ultra but I have no back symptoms! Objectively, I know the DOMS will subside and I will begin to find enjoyment again running.The fear of herniation no longer has a hold on me.
So back to the topic, a bucket list. Do you have one? What is important to you? What are things you want to accomplish in your life? The list is personal and can be a powerful tool in your own journey of self-discovery. Do you want to do something amazing in 2015? Maybe you want to travel, begin a new hobby, have more energy to play with your kids, or like me, completing a triathlon .When you have quiet time, listen and put pen to paper and make your list. You could very well be uncomfortable like I was initially at the whole idea. After some time, your desires will begin to appear on the paper.
As I plan first quarter workshops for Bliss with Mac, I am amazed at the people brought into my life. It is an absolute honor to witness life changing transformations that can occur taking small steps in the right direction. If anything here resonates with you, I welcome you to contact me personally.
This blog has become a place for my thoughts to flow freely. It has become a platform for readers to get to know me as a person. Who I am, where I come from , how I think and understanding my basic moral compass. I hope this blog has given you the opportunity to get to know me, Macara .
I want to humbly thank the readers that have joined me here on this silly little blog of mine. I could have never dreamed of this many page views.The response has been overwhelming. I am truly humbled by the number of readers that visit the blog. If I can in any way support you in your own goals, I am an email away.
As always, wishing you the best,
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